Thursday, October 4, 2012

Life and My Funk...

This is an Insecure Writer's Support Group post. For more info, check out the awesome Alex J Cavanaugh's blog.

I normally would've posted this yesterday, but since I forgot it was the first Wednesday of the month...I'm posting it a little late.

With this funk I've been stuck in, writing has taken a backseat for too long. It's like the more I couldn't get in the mood to write, the farther away my love for writing drifted. I got lost in real life-cleaning, cooking, kids, etc-and I couldn't find my way back to the fantasy world I like to dive into. The voices in my head went silent, the ideas running rampid were non-existent, and I couldn't have cared less whether I opened up a blank document to tell a story ever again...

But I kept dreaming. Literally. I kept having dreams of these people and places that only exist in the made up worlds that only writers can create, things happening that couldn't ever be real...

I realized, it wasn't that the voices in my head were silent, I wasn't listening. My ideas didn't leave, I chose to ignore them. And it wasn't that I didn't care about writing, I was forcing myself to not care. Forcing myself to only pay attention to things outside of writing...

And that's when I knew-I wasn't in a funk, I was buried so deep in life that I was silencing my creativity. I was trying to get rid of the ideas because I was so sure they weren't there. If I just did other things, I wouldn't think of writing since I couldn't anyway. I threw myself into everything non-writerly because I was convinced I'd lost my mojo and that everything else was too time consuming, but I was wrong.

Yes, life happens, Yes, I have kids to take care of, cleaning to do, everyone must be fed, and errands must be ran. But I've always done all of those things and still found time to write. So, now that I figured out the issue, I'm working on it. I think I'll be able to be back on track for real this time. Thanks for everyone who keeps hanging with me.

I hope you all have a wonderful day. See you tomorrow for an awesome cover reveal. :)

6 comments:

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Late is all right by me.
Those ideas were going to find a way to reach you no matter what.

Nick Wilford said...

I think you know you're a true writer now, with the ideas fighting to be heard! I think we all go through times like that, and they can be horrible. Glad you're finding your way back!

Robin said...

Wow-this post is right on for me. I often get so overwhelmed with life that I can't hear my characters either. Glad I'm not alone:)

Robin said...

Wow-this post is right on for me. I often get so overwhelmed with life that I can't hear my characters either. Glad I'm not alone:)

Lori Sjoberg said...

Glad to see you're getting back on track!

Precy Larkins said...

I feel you. Ever since the baby was born, I haven't had the time or the brain to write. Heck, I hardly have time for myself. So I've been feeling the pressure of writing and not being able to do it. Enter self-doubt and unnecessary worry. But I know that this is only a temporary phase. It helped to read a lot of books just to stay connected with words. It also helped to read the stories I've written in the past so I could reassure myself that since I've already done it before, I should be able to write again.

Good luck and keep on writing!