Insecure Writers Support Group post. I'm actually a little nervous, lol. That's the awkward side coming out. I'm always afraid I will mess up, say/do something I shouldn't, not say/do something that I should. That's in life, in everything I do-especially when I'm trying something for the first time.
And that's how I felt when I first started writing a book. It's how I feel when I'm critiquing someones query letter or MS. I feel that way when I'm posting my chapter(s) for my group to critique or when I'm sending a chapter to my CP to crit. I even feel that way with revisions and when I'm starting a new story.
I guess it's not fear as much as insecurity. I'm worried about how I will sound, how well I write or if my critique is even going to be helpful. It's normal, this worry I feel with everything I do. Even the most secure person has that fear inside them, that wonder if what they have to say (or what their doing) will be 'approved.' (Even if they don't think so :p )
When I started writing my first (for real) book (the one I started when I decided I wanted to be a WRITER), I kept it to myself. Then I slowly started talking about it with family and friends. Some thought it was just another of my fantasies, while others were (and still are) SO supportive. Hell, when I started a blog, everyone but my mom thought it was ridiculous. Now I love blogging and I love writing. I've always loved writing, but I love giving myself that title-WRITER.
I've met so many wonderful (and not so wonderful) people online and being part of the Insecure Writers Group is just another opportunity to meet more wonderful people who are like me. Writers who feel insecure sometimes. People who have worries and fears just like I do. Friends who can be there for me, and who I can be there for in return.
That's why I embrace my insecurities, all the wondering if what I'm doing is good enough, because I know that I'm not alone and I have people in my boat who are ready to be there for me. People who will help keep my insecurities from running me, and help me run my insecurities. I encourage you to embrace yours too because you're not alone either.
Hopefully this first post is okay...lol, yep still have that 'first time' fear. But that's okay.
Happy Wednesday and make sure you click the 'Insecure Writers Support Group' link and check out others :)